I tell myself a little harmless lie, the whole wide world is mineee.

I just made a two hour entry, and by the time I finished, a simple press of the back button depleted the last two hours of my life. Haha.So here I sit once again, in this dark, lavender scented room, with the fan blowing beside me at like a hundred miles an hour.I'm drenched in a deep sea of Angel and Airwave lyrics, and I'm feeling overwhelmingly emotional.The last few months have been no less than hectic for myself. But I can finally say that after months of being burdened with the weight of fakeness, stress, and hidden pain I've burried deep inside me, I'm finaly free, and this newly found fresh air, this fresh life, is oh so brilliantly marvelous. I'm thankful for everyday I wake up, knowing theres these two people in my life who care about me. Who love me. And i'm truly thankful that I can love them back with all my heart. Sure differences weigh in at a substancial amount, as well as our likes. Destiny is on my side.=).Burger King has found a new employee, Kirsten Clark. Which is the greatest thing everr. More for me than for her I bet. Haha. Were going to get in so much trouble, it's not even funny. Actully, it IS=D.I lost the March 4th concert tickets in my room somewhere, so a massive search is in order for my room.It's humorous though, I'm hundreds of dollars in debt, and I haven't truly talked to so many people I deeply Love in forever, and I'm still holding a positive outlook on my life at the moment. Does this mean it's time to do some more shedding, or am I just waiting to get my life back in order before I try to let more poeple into my life, that way they don't see me in the current state I'm in. I'm not saying my current state is horrid. Far from it. I just think I want to grow into I better person before I make an effort too reconcile with people. I don't know. Maybe I'm affraid. I'm affraid of alot more than I let on. Alot more than i care to admit to myself. I want as few people as possible to see through me. I want to be this gigantic brick, impossible to currupt. To break into. But I guess thats whats making me who I am. This timid, afraid, lonley girl. I think thats why I fight with Kirsten alot. She can see thorugh me like a freaking glass, and I don't like that. I don't want people knowing me. I don't care for people to know about who I am, or what I want. Hell, I don't know what I want, I don't know anything about myself. Maybe thats it. I'm insecure about not having all he facts about myself, which shows the weak side of me, and I don't ever want to think of myself as weak. Or at least, I don't want anyone else to think I'm weak. I'm not sure. See, and just admitting I'm not sure is sending you the message that I don't know who I am, I don't know what I want, I don't know anything. I that frieghtens me to some degree so far off this earth, Satellites aren't even advanced enough to detect it. Mhm, now I'm just not making any sense, because clearly, thats impossible, I just like creating my own fucked up metaphors.=). And once again I'm rambbling, and creating a web so tangled, your confussion is overpoweing your mind. Muahah.
And this concludes the deep, emotionally fucked up Brittney-Session.
Have A Nice Life,


"If I had a chance for another try, I wouldn't change a thing This made me all on who I am inside And if I could thank god That I am here, and that I am alive And everyday I wake I tell myself a little harmless lie The whole wide world is mine"

"The friendship we made, is a waste of our time.There's no one left here, to show a future that's kind.It's a world of hate, gone incredibly wrong.We cared too late; we just followed along."

"When the storm brings rain, snow, fate of all kinds,You can feel almost anything.When the day seems to melt, fall flat in the night,You can feel almost anything.When you can't go on, you gotta get up and try.This is it, can you feel me?When the bombs come down, you will make it alive.If you only, if you wanna believe."

AngelsAndAirwavesss.